Every now and then, my mind wanders off into the depths of pettiness and stumbles upon something to develop a gripe about. After becoming sufficiently disgruntled, it then moves on to its next task (typically overthinking or self-doubt). Normally, such thoughts rapidly fade back into obscurity but, occasionally, one of them sticks with me and resurfaces with renewed contempt. So, “every now and then” is a phrase that popped into my mind sometime ago and has occupied a space ever since. Why, you ask? Because it betrays its own meaning. It’s supposed to mean “occasionally” or “infrequently” but the choice…
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After thinking about the whole concept of “doing what seems right at the time” to such an extent I started applying it more locally. This, in turn, led me to think about what it is to be human and noticing and appreciating the things that are potentially easily over-looked. What does it even mean to “be human”? I had been speaking with someone for a number of months and very early on it was clear to me that they were an incredible person. Given my life trajectory I was extremely fortunate to have the opportunity to meet them in person…
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So, I’m in a bit of a weird spot emotionally and I was just musing about the nature of life and decision making and, despite my inebriated state, I think I articulated it pretty well. This particular train of thought was initiated by a message written by myself where I was, if I’m being honest, a twat and deliberately fishing for further questioning so that I could open up, a ridiculous trait of mine which I need to fucking stop. Once sent, I started to overthink and worry about the potential consequences. I was worried they’d be, understandably, fed up…
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Stop it, I can feel the heat generated between the folds of your heavily furrowed brow from here. It was that, “alcophilosopher” or “alcoholosopher” – with the former being okay, albeit a lazy compounding of the words, and the latter being a vocal clusterfuck. So which do you prefer? Besides, alcomist has a nice ring to it, right? No? Well it did for me after repeating it a few times (being intoxicated helped). Let’s move on from the title now. Before we get into the serious stuff properly, I just wanted to have a little light-hearted post to provide gentle…
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Given that this is the first post on this website it may be somewhat confusing to see it titled as it is since it may suggest that this category is being smothered beneath an avalanche of utter nonsense which clearly isn’t the case. Yet. This site will soon be populated with an eye-wateringly large amount of utterly asinine posts that will lead you to seriously contemplate the mental integrity of the general population. And this is the originally intended purpose of this website – to escape not only the mundanity of daily life but also the ever omnipresent sense of…
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I awake in a place without light, an endless bank of fog rolls impenetrable overhead, carried by a frozen wind that carresses my body with its bite. A sempiternal personal wasteland imagined and realised in the same subconcious breath, woven into every fiber of me, the beginning and end flowing seemlessy within the other. A perpetual nightmare fuelled by fear of it and engima of being without it, a smothering safety blanket draped over reality, obscuring and giving form simultaneously. Trapped by my own coping mechanism, lost in my own escape route, screaming for help with a voice never able…